One Hundred Twelve.
Sunday, 2009.11.15, 6:52 PM CST.
I just quit?
Current Mood: Depressed.
Current Scent: Lingering traces of Messe de Minuit by Etro.
right, everyone. Buckle up. It's going to be a bumpy post.
the Assimilation Depeche
Mode Tribute Night, I'm not going to DJ for a while. Anywhere.
(If you haven't read Journal Entry 111 yet, I recommend following that
link and reading it before you go any further on this page.)
obviously don't DJ events as often as I used to, but out of the handful
of gigs I performed this year, I was looking forward to this one the
unfortunately had a few things go awry. Due to sound issues regarding
my equipment, my choice of media (I don't play from a laptop), and my
own personal remixes (which are apparently too bass-heavy), I'm not
going to bother the Marquee with my DJing anymore. I like the
Marquee - I really do - but I don't like going through the extra hassle
of being the one DJ whose equipment somehow causes issues with the sound
levels at a location.
from that... Well, I've been having other issues lately as well.
WIFE AND KID ARE MORE IMPORTANT THAN BEING A DJ.
have a wife at home who needs to complete her college degree, and a
two-and-a-half-year-old son who requires a lot of attention. After
I come home from my day job, I can't play the "DJ" all evening.
I have to be a father and a husband first.
being a good father and husband means getting home after my day job
and tending to my son while my wife works on her homework or studies
for tests. After that, when he needs to go to bed, I often (whether
I like it or not) pass out along with him. If I do stay awake,
it usually isn't for long, since I'm so exhausted.
not that I mind dealing with X (my son) most of the time. He's
a good kid and I'm extremely proud of him. But, he's also very
demanding. He shows signs of being exceptionally bright for his
age, and I try to nurture that. He loves learning - playing with
flash cards and having people read to him. He's also got some
of the cultural "quirks" of his parents. He would often
rather watch DVDs of "Pee Wee's Playhouse" or "Fraggle
Rock" than the latest children's programming on cable.
summary, my kid is awesome.
is no feeling that I can get from a dancing crowd at an event that can
equal the joy I feel when I make X smile and laugh. There is no
"trainwreck" (catastrophic DJ mixing error) that can make
me feel as bad as I feel when I have to leave the house and X looks
at me with his big blue eyes and says "bye-bye Dada" with
I have often put a tremendous emphasis on my "gigs."
I have sunk thousands of dollars into getting the right equipment and
buying the rarest, most incredible mixes for my DJ arsenal.
to be a great DJ takes a lot of time and attention. So does raising
a great kid. For that matter, so does doing a load of dishes or
cleaning the house. Chores like those aren't going to do themselves.
cannot be my "life" anymore. Not like it used to be.
A DINOSAUR IN THE DJ FIELD.
been in the DJ industry for over twenty-one years. On one hand,
this means I'm "experienced." On the other hand, this
means I'm "old."
be the first to admit: I don't embrace the latest in DJ technology.
You're not going to see me "DJing" with a laptop. I
still like to DJ the old-fashioned way: I haul in a bunch of vinyl
records and a load of CDs, and that's what I use to play music.
I enjoy new music and remixes, but when it comes to the actual DJ performance,
I would rather actually give people the genuine, old-school experience
of seeing someone work with multiple vinyl records (not just vinyl emulation)
on real DJ turntables.
have no question that DJ technology has made things significantly easier
for DJs. There are individuals who can DJ with a laptop and do
a great job. DJ Bone! and DJ Sokmonkey from last night, for instance
- they do some great stuff with a laptop and I respect them for that.
technology has also poisoned the DJ field by making it too easy to "be
a DJ." Any kid with a laptop (or just an iPod) and a sound
system (i.e., a boombox) can call himself/herself a "DJ" without
having to put forth much effort or expense. While I and other
legitimate DJs buy our music, amateur wannabes can acquire
a "free" (stolen) music library by just going online and downloading
pirated copies of almost anything they want.
result is an industry that is saturated with "DJs," some of
whom are genuinely talented and respectable, and a great deal of whom
are talentless scum who have no passion or respect for music or musicians
- they're just doing what they can in an effort to get rich, popular,
a legitimate, old-school DJ who prefers genuine, manual, full-contact
vinyl work (instead of taking a couple of seconds setting up "autosync"
in a computer program), I know that I'm going to require more practice
than a laptop DJ. It's amazing to see some of these laptop DJs
doing their thing... but that's their thing, not my thing.
choose to be one of the few dinosaurs who uses the old-school tools
Sometimes it feels cool knowing that I am one of the few and the proud
who dare to work with real vinyl. However... Sometimes,
in comparison to my peers in the field, it can feel a little archaic
which way it felt last night. Go ahead. Take a few moments
night, I was tired, exhausted, and off my game. This was an event
for which I'd been planning for months... and there I was, with over
two decades of experience under my belt, and I felt like a noobie compared
to my considerably younger DJ counterparts.
disappointed myself in the first set, and I was fairly pleased with
my second set. However, I didn't put forth the time, effort, money
and worry leading up to this gig to just feel "fairly pleased"
with my performance.
TAKING SOME TIME OFF.
a lot of thinking to do about my future in the DJ industry. I'm
not ready to say "I quit" just yet, but at the same time I
don't feel as happy as I used to in this field, and I know that the
more time I spend trying to stick around in the DJ field, the more time
I have to take away from the most important two projects I've ever undertaken:
being a husband and being a father.
doing any more DJ performances until at least the end of the year, and
I would be very surprised if I take another gig before spring
practicing, though - off and on, when I get the occasional chance.
I'll keep working on the occasional production here and there, and I'll
still keep posting and updating this site.
going to lie... There is the possibility that I've seen my last
gig. There are a handful of people out there - myself included
- who hope that's not really the case. But, it's a possibility
that I can't rule out. I'm just too tired of gearing up for some
really wonderful experience and being disappointed in the outcome.
a lot of stuff I need to get done around the house, and I need to go
get some groceries as well. More later.