One Hundred Fifteen.
Friday, 2010-01-01, 10:28 AM CST.
Is a Shield."
Current Mood: Optimistic.
Current Scent: The faint remnants of Casran by Chopard.
it's now 2010. I didn't go anywhere for New Year's Eve; I stayed
home with Lanna and X and watched Dick Clark do his best to count down
to midnight. "HAPPUH NUH YUHHH!!!" I have a feeling
2010 is going to bring forth a lot of magnificent changes and good things.
Don't ask me why I have this feeling; I really don't know.
hard to believe how much time had gone by since my first "Christmas
season" of DJing. It's been twenty years since then.
It had been twenty years since I bought tracks like Phil Collins' "Another
Day in Paradise," Technotronic's "Pump Up the Jam," 101's
"Rock To the Beat," and a whole slew of modernized Christmas
tunes in a compilation called A Very Special Christmas.
of the biggest tracks I can remember picking up from around that time,
though, was "Love Is A Shield" from Camouflage. It wasn't
a big deal commercially - a club-oriented electronic track - but it
was a song with which I had essentially fallen in love from listening
to it on KTOW (the best radio station Tulsa ever had, 1988-1991).
If I remember correctly, I ran out and picked up the 12" vinyl
single at some time between Christmas and New Year's Eve.
I played it over and over at home. I loved that song.
on New Year's Eve 1989, I was borderline suicidal.
the end of the year in 1989, I was at the top of my class in high school,
and I owned my own mobile DJ business. I should have been on top
of the world. Instead, for most part, I really disliked high school,
and I was very lonely, and I felt heartbroken by someone named... Joanna,
I think? We went out once and I was really naively hoping something
would develop from it. It was really ignorant, stupid thinking
on my part. However, I was 18 and still relatively introverted,
but hopeful. Let's face it... I was grabbing at straws at
hated my life that night. While other people were out having fun
at parties, I was sitting at home, alone, watching some NYE special
at home (Exposé performed, if I remember correctly), writing
something that wasn't a "suicide note," but basically would
have served the same purpose. It was kind of a "I'm not going
to kill myself tonight, but just in case I do..." type of note.
Very drawn-out, about how cruel the world was and about how I was so
amazing how things change. Obviously, I survived, and now two
whole decades have passed.
years. Twenty Christmases, twenty birthdays. Twenty whole
years. That is insane.
is going to be one of the biggest years I've ever had. I don't
know how I know it; I just have a feeling.
I still adore "Love Is a Shield." Happy new year, everybody.