One Hundred Twenty-Eight.
Friday, 2010.09.17, 9:55 AM CST.
in My Eyes" and a few memories of TU.
Current Mood: Nostalgic again.
Scent: None, aside from a bit of workout sweat from early this
really wanted to post more new updates over the last month. Obviously,
I've failed in that endeavour. My household has been through a
lot in recent times, and I've unfortunately gotten a lot better acquainted
with my old friend, clinical depression.
have "wanted" to write more updates... but I haven't felt
mentally "able" to. For those who have been looking
forward to one... I'm sorry.
I want to post about a few more memories, mainly revolving arond a Depeche
Mode song, "World in My Eyes," which was released in the UK
20 years ago today.
the time that "World in My Eyes" was released, I had been
collecting Depeche Mode's music for almost three years... and I'd been
a fairly obsessive collector of their work for about two years, having
discovered the glory of imported vinyl only two years before.
It was the final of four very strong singles ("Personal Jesus,"
"Enjoy the Silence," "Policy of Truth," and "World
in My Eyes") from Depeche Mode's best-selling album, Violator.
had been a fan of "World in My Eyes" for several months, having
first heard it as the opening track of Violator in March of
1990. The initial 12" single release (which I promptly picked
up on September 18th, when it arrived at Mohawk Music) included Francois
Kervorkian's impressive Oil Tank Mix of "WiME," along with
two of the best and most memorable B-sides that Depeche Mode ever produced:
"Sea of Sin" (Sensoria) and "Happiest Girl" (Kiss-A-Mix).
specifically remember that when I brought the single back to my dorm
room at Tulsa University, I found that there was a major defect:
The label had been pressed onto the record in the wrong spot on one
side, so the paper of the label actually extended out into the path
of the record grooves, thus rendering a large portion of the song unplayable!
I returned it to Mohawk, who luckily still had another copy.
far as Depeche Mode singles go, it's not quite one of my favourites
(like "Never Let Me Down Again," "Stripped," and
"Walking in My Shoes"), but it's definitely a song I'd rank
very highly. I've always found it a good, solid track, and it's
fairly recognizable by many non-DM fans as well, which is good from
a DJ playability standpoint.
song, as well as its B-sides, always remind me of a special time of
my life: My first semester in college. I had only been attending
Tulsa University for a little over a month when "World in My Eyes"
was released. I lived in a dorm building called the Twin Towers,
in room B of Suite 211. My room was decorated in a psychotic,
obsessive amount (seriously) of Depeche Mode posters and memorabilia.
It was crazy. Someday, perhaps, I'll post pictures.
was the sole valedictorian of my class in high school, but college knocked
me on my butt and smacked some reality into me. I immediately
found myself struggling through classes that semester - especially Calculus
I and Honors Epics.
was right around the same time that I discovered Critic's Choice Video
- a little independent video store on Harvard, at which I rented such
gems as the bizarre 1989 remake of "Dr. Caligari" and the
old Nastassja Kinski flick, "To the Devil A Daughter."
Little did I know that in about four and a half years, after meeting
DJ TMJ, it would become my regular hangout.
I digress... I still remember that first semester very well, and
one particularly clear set of memories happened right around the time
of the "World in My Eyes" release. I was sitting in
the Twin Towers computer lab one evening, working on some Pascal programming
for class... when in walked a young lady, looking like a cross between
Andie McDowell and Annabella Sciorra. She was accompanying a tall
fellow with a jacket and scarf that made it fairly clear that he was
most likely a big "Doctor Who" fan.
the time, I was still very socially awkward... and I was stunned when,
having noticed my "Music for the Masses" tour shirt, she asked
if I had seen Depeche Mode in concert. I explained that I had,
but not during the "Masses" tour... rather, earlier in 1990,
during the "World Violation" tour.
discussed Depeche Mode at length, and I summoned up the nerve to ask
her out. She agreed, and soon after (the next night, perhaps?),
we had an unusual date, attending an on-campus lecture on censorship
by Nat Hentoff, and a visit to the Metro Diner for a couple of malts.
were somewhat romantically involved for a bit, but (as I explained
to her) I had a girlfriend who had moved to Dallas for the time being,
and while we'd agreed that it was okay to see other people, we also
had agreed to not do anything "too serious." That particular
"romantic" span between my TU companion and I lasted about
it turned out, my girlfriend in Dallas decided that "not too serious"
included losing her virginity to somebody else while she was down there...
but, of course, I didn't know that at the time.)
TU companion and I discussed a lot of things... like her upbringing
abroad in Saudi Arabia and Switzerland and, of course, our mutual admiration
of Depeche Mode's work. It was an interesting friendship... one
that was intermittently revisited, taking a few odd twists and turns,
over the course of three years. In the fall of 1993, due to circumstances
I don't really want to discuss at this time, I chose to discontinue
picked up "World in My Eyes" on the night of our first date...
or perhaps the night immediately after. Regretfully, I cannot
remember, but I know that they were only separated by one or two days
at the most. To this day, every time I think of the "World
in My Eyes" single - and especially those B-sides, "Happiest
Girl" and "Sea of Sin" - I think of that specific point
in my life, way back in Twin West.
know what a lot of you are probably wondering - "Whatever happened
to the TU girl?" Well, I'm not sure. The last time
I heard from her, she had moved to Germany with her brother, and she
had finally been able to see Depeche Mode live for her first time, during
their spectacular "Devotional" tour.
my knowledge, she doesn't know anything about this website, and will
probably never see this post. We have not communicated in almost
seventeen years, and odds are that we never will. I remember her
with fondness, but I also know that if anything serious had developed
between us, she would have torn me apart.
she is, I hope that life is treating her well.
- Pssssssst... There's been an update to that TU story.
See blog update 171