Two Hundred Forty.
Sunday, 2021.10.10, 9:12 PM central time.
I need to provide an update - major, major news.
Current Mood: A little tired, but
not too bad.
Current Scent: Oud for Greatness by Initio..
it's been a long time. I really hoped that I'd have the new site
ready by now, but obviously, I don't.
really hope that you've all been doing well out there. Well, except
for very specific people, and most of them know who they are.
But, if you're taking the time to come here and read my posts, odds
are you're one of the people whom I'm not trying to outlive.
those of you reading this in the considerable future, let me set the
timeframe: The initial version of COVID-19 (Coronavirus) has killed
off a lot of people, and thanks to the anti-maskers and anti-vaxxers
out there (aka the plague rats), the disease has stuck around longer
than it ever should have. I've had the initial two doses of the
Pfizer vaxxine. No, it didn't come with microchips. Yes,
it was researched before being administered to the general public.
The world is now dealing with the Delta Variant of COVID-19, which is
also mighty deadly. There are lots of people who have conspiracy
theories about the virus, but then again, there are lots of people who
are fully convinced that the earth is flat, and no matter what evidence
is presented to them, our planet will always be flat in their minds.
Those people are morons.
known people who have had COVID-19. It's a real thing, and if
you get all of the symptoms, it sucks. The vaccines out there
may not 100% prevent people from getting the virus, but they will prevent
the symptoms from being as bad... so, a trip to the hospital and lifelong
respiratory problems could be reduced to a bit of a fever and flu-like
symptoms. That's worth it to me.
hundred four days have passed since my last entry here. A lot
can happen in 204 days. Here are some of the really big updates.
June 5th, Lanna told me that she was "thinking about moving out."
Within a week, she had already moved back into our old house (which
we had not yet sold after purchasing a newer house in 2019), purchased
some new furniture, and stopped wearing her wedding ring. We are
currently going through a divorce, and hopefully it will be completed
by the end of the year.
of you out there might be thinking, "Well, gee, Badger, I bet you
hate her guts, don't you?" No. This is not about one
of us being "evil" and the other one being "good."
She made some decisions that I didn't like, and I made some decisions
that she didn't like. Over the course of our almost sixteen years
together, it became more and more evident that she and I were very different
people. When she told me that she was thinking of leaving, it
didn't surprise me at all.
fact, I had first brought up the idea of moving out five years ago,
and then brought up the idea of getting divorced two years ago.
This was not a shocking new idea for us. We kept trying to make
it work, but it just... didn't. She finally decided to take the
next steps that I could not, and I'm actually grateful and proud of
her for doing so.
not a bad person, and in my opinion, she's a great mom to our children
and really cares for their best interests. Neither of us have
been greedy about the divorce terms, and the custody of our children
will be evenly divided. Our sons, from all appearances and the
conversations that we've had about this, seem to be taking all of this
don't anticipate that Lanna and I will be "best friends,"
but we are moving forward with this in an especially civil fashion.
I hope she knows that if she ever needs anything that I can help her
with, I'll do what I can to assist. She has certainly bailed me
out of some extremely bad situations in the past, and I owe her a lot.
Despite our differences, we've had some wonderful memories over the
past sixteen years, and I wish her well.
a big dude... yet again.
followed me for a while, then you've seen me post about my issues with
my weight before. Over the course of the pandemic, I have ballooned
back up to around the heaviest I've ever been - two-hundred twenty-two
pounds. I'm not proud of that, and I realize that the extra weight
isn't good for me. There's been diabetes on both sides of my family,
and I know that I've got to knock some of this weight down.
So, I've actively adopted a new regimen and I'm going to try to stick
any of this sounds familiar or redundant... you're right. I've
tried it before, a number of times. Losing weight and keeping
the weight off is really difficult, but I'm trying. We'll see
how things go.
that being said... I refuse to let the weight issue shake my confidence.
We only get a certain number of days here on Earth, and I'm not going
to sit around getting sad and beating myself up about my weight.
Over the years, I've learned that when it comes to how I feel about
my appearance, I've got three major choices:
- I can
dwell on my shortcomings and tell myself that I'm fat, ugly, and unworthy
- I can
decide to focus on my strengths, accept myself as I am, and then do
nothing to get better.
- I can
decide to focus on my strengths, be actively confident about
myself as I am, and then make strides to improve my situation, acknowledging
that I have room for improvement and hoping that I can get a little
better every day.
in the future, I can go into much further detail about my weird thought
processes that have reinforced my self-esteem. I'm not perfect
- not by a loooooong shot - and I've got a lot of improvement
ahead of me. But, I can acknowledge that and simultaneously
feel good about myself.
initial "run" of Radio SRO has ended... but it hasn't completely
For a while,
Radio SRO and the Groovy Train were being presented every Saturday,
and it was a bit overwhelming, with a few other elements causing me
to just not enjoy it as much as I did at the outset. Earlier this
year, I shifted things down and started presenting Radio SRO and the
Groovy Train on the first, third, and fifth Saturdays of each month.
It still took too much out of me... so a few months back, I announced
that I would be ending this regularly-scheduled run of Radio SRO.
next scheduled episodes of Radio SRO and the Groovy Train are set for
Saturday, November 27th, but occasionally I will pop up with impromptu
or near-impromptu Radio SRO/Groovy Train performances (such as the Groovy
Train performance from last Tuesday). I recommend following me
and following me on Mixcloud.
I often announce my performances on the Facebook page, and if you are
following me on Mixcloud you should receive notifications whenever I
start a live DJ set online.
always, BIG thanks go out to Tim Barazza and the SROcialites who keep
coming back time and time again to watch and listen to me spin tunes
online. You've changed this weird vintage DJ's life, and I appreciate
shied away from social media a bit more than usual.
I mentioned Facebook in the previous section... I don't post there nearly
as much as I used to. A lot of what I see there just depresses
me, and I would really rather be focusing on things that make me happier
and avenues for my own creativity.
brings me to this revelation: There is no shame in being happy.
I used to feel bad about even trying to be happy; long ago, I told myself
that I simply was unable to feel that emotion to its fullest.
Part of me would feel guilty about feeling happiness when there was
so much suffering in the rest of the world. One can acknowledge
the suffering of others while still experiencing joy, and as long as
one is still doing something to help improve what's happening to other
people, there is no shame in allowing one's self to feel wonderfully
I'm still working on that.
quick update on my prostate cancer scare.
had some labs run, and my PSA (Prostate Specific Antigen) levels were
back down to normal. I'm not sure why, as they were still slightly
elevated when I last had them checked, but this is great news.
50" is around the corner.
Soon, I will
be fifty years old.
not something I've chosen, and no choices that I've made have either
sped up or slowed down the process. Time, as I've often said,
can be cruel... and no matter what, whether I like it or not, fifty
read something cute the other day: Don't see it as an age, see
it as a level. Instead of saying that I'm fifty years old, I can
say that I've made it to Level 50. I started at Level 0 right
here in Tulsa, Oklahoma, and I made my way through some wonderful as
well as some horrible circumstances, interacting with countless others
and making my way through life... and, in just a matter of weeks, I'll
be reaching Level 50. That sounds a bit more badass.
didn't think I'd ever make it to 40, let alone 50, so this is not something
I'm weeping about. It's an accomplishment of which I'm pretty
that'll do for now. More soon, hopefully. Thank you, everyone,
for your support.
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